Color Me Lethargic.

(that would be the beige crayon)

If only it did any good to complain...

Posted by Lindsey Tue, 25 Apr 2006 18:24:00 GMT
My dad is buying Terra and Travis a trailer down the street from their house. My dad claims it's an investment opportunity and that Travis and Terra will be "renting" it, but I know better. It's unfortunate that young people in this family get rewarded for having kids, but not for graduating college. I have no qualms with Terra or Travis - they're both in a situation they can't help and, hell, anyone would appreciate that kind of charity. It's just that he paid for 1/3 of Billy's college and he offered Theresa a spot at the house if she had to move out of her apartment, then bought her a lawnmower and was going to give her $600 when she was in a bind. Me? I got $600 in the last 4 years toward college (he justified this because I got 2 years of scholarships - I worked my ASS off for those) and when I tell him I may have to move in with Gran and I don't want to, all he does is ask if Terra and Travis can use my washer/dryer when I leave. I'm sorry, but that pisses me off, that he has those kinds of balls. At this point, if I have to move, I'm selling that thing for $600, no less. I was always the favorite growing up, but somehow, in his eyes, I've been knocked out of the mix. I'm not even welcome to move back home. He didn't even help me move and had nothing but negative thoughts when I moved in the first place, and denyed co-signing a loan for me. He brought the question up last night of whether or not I was upset about them buying the trailer and I kept telling him, "I want to make it clear that you brought up this topic," and let him know that I was upsest but, unless he was willing to help me out, I wasn't about to talk about it. I'll keep getting by on my own. I have a feeling that I'm better off out of that mix, anyway. Why do I continue seekng their approval?

I had my MetLife interview today. It went well. He told me I interview well and he can see how I would be excellent in sales. Although I think I'd be better at Vandover, I'll take the MetLife position if offered, as it pays more and has less of a drive time involved. Plus, there's more room for creative input and seems like more of a dynamic position. In the mean time, I'm going to continue looking.

I think I'm going to go take a nap. I'm tired and my creativity pool is getting shallow.

I hate allergies.

~*PEACE*~

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    theeternaltruth@hotmail.com
    21 days later:
    I respect your unwillingness to place allegiance where it hasn't been earned. Or have I missed the point. Hailing from a much more metropolitan place than can be found anywhere in IL, I will say that I am shocked to see this very kind of thing going on in many small towns in the area. It's as if there exist a true aversion to economical and perhaps even intellectual ascent. If you ask my opinion(which you haven't) You have been trivialized by your family because in their eyes, you no longer have a dependency claim on them. This should be a source of pride for you and not angst. Central american families have created a world where independency is not rewarded, but getting pregnant too early in life and "not having a supposed choice" is. This is perhaps the most ridiculous familiar precept that I have ever beared witness to. As evident as the problems are, I can see no viable method for altering this behaviour within the span of a lifetime. There is no pill for the tratment of a low intelligence quotient. All one can do is not repeat the cycle and be selective with one's own breeding practices. Irresponsible sexual activity will only breed more of the same. We, as intellectuals, do not have as many children as others do. This is just a fact. A holon in and of itself. Perhaps we are to be blamed for not fucking everything we see. -=TrutH=-

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