Color Me Lethargic.

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So I broke it off with Frank...

Posted by Lindsey Mon, 19 Mar 2007 23:06:00 GMT
Its been coming for a long time. I could see it in the distance - the inevitable break-up.
I love him, I really do, but I just stopped seeing the relationship go anywhere. I don't want to live with him. I don't want to marry him (although I once did).
I figured out that I neither trust him fully nor respect him, and I knew that wasn't healthy. It's as much my fault as it is his - I hold very high expectations - finish school, don't lie to me, follow through when you say you'll do something, etc. I was always really hard on him. I just wanted to push him harder, motivate him more... something.
I finally realized that we just weren't that compatible and I'll deal with that.
I'll miss him a lot. He didn't want this at all and I insisted. I'll never fully forgive myself for hurting him, but I really hope he proves me wrong in so many ways. I didn't cry at all, although I'm sure I may later. I hope he finds someone who will treat him well. He deserves to be happy. I know he has a fabulous group of friends who will get him through this.
I guess I'll be pretty bored now. Call me if you want to hang out.
~*PEACE*~

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    mike o
    about 14 hours later:
    I sorry to hear that. Your a great person im sure you will find the right person some day. You might have hurt people, but you also make positive changes in people. When it come down to it, I think life is about memories. And I am proud to say I have some good ones with you in them.
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    Lindsey
    1 day later:
    Your comment probably meant more than anyone else's could have. Glad you keep up with me, even if you can't return my phone calls :-) Hope you and the baby are well - any day now, huh? Keep in touch.
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    ...
    1 day later:
    True love, like any other strong and addicting drug, is boring - once the tale of encounter and discovery is told, kisses quickly grow stale and caresses tiresome . . . except, of course, to those who share the kisses, who give and take caresses while every sound and color of the world seems to deepen and brighten around them. As with any other strong srug, true first love is really only interesting to those who have become its prisoners. And, as is true of any other strong and addicting drug, true first love is dangerous.
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    Joe Foote
    1 day later:
    Sorry to hear about you and Frank. I hope things work out for you. You are a very special person and deserve all the happiness that comes to you. Stay Good...
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    Lindsey
    2 days later:
    He certainly wasn't my first love (he's dead) and I didn't get bored woth him. It was unfortunate that I realized that I couldn't be with him any more. He's really a great guy - I could have easily stayed with him out of comfort. I realized, though, that I would be settling for Frank, and he doesn't deserve that. I love him dearly - I always will. He's fabulous in so many unique ways! I didn't break up with hm because I was mad at him or I hated hi or anything like that - he's wonderful to me. Please get this straight: I broke up with Frank because I realized that our relationship was going nowhere. I didn't want to live with him and I didn't want to marry him. Regardless, he's so much fun and I hope we stay close for a very long time.
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    Tree
    2 days later:
    Sis, I had no idea. I am sorry to hear this, but you're a smart, caring human being, and you're the only one that knows what's best for YOU. I trust your judgement and I'm sure it's for the best for both of you. Call Me. I love you and I'm here for you.
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    mom
    3 days later:
    True love is not lies and disappointments, if that is what your special someone hands you , run--'cause it will go on for years and life is too short. Without trust and respect, you have nothing. If he does it now, it only gets worse. It's hard enough to stand on your own two feet without having to have one stuck up someone else's ass in order to get ahead in life. You've been around enough of it to know the difference, be smart sooner. Honest, ambitious and responsible are good traits, and should not be too much to ask from an adult. Lies are unacceptable. Years later, they will still hurt. Meow.
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    Erik Williams
    3 days later:
    Hey Lindz. I'm sorry to hear about the break up but you are confident in yourself and it's better that you made the decision now instead of waiting years down the road having been unfulfilled. I wish you the best. Also...I don't know if you've heard but Gameheads is premiering at Show Me Con the weekend of April 20-22. There will very possibly be a private showing for cast/crew in which case I'm sure you'll get an email from Gwen. Call me sometime: 618-303-6064

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